"I hate waiting."

As you might guess, I'm a bit impatient. I had hoped that picking up a pair of knitting needles would help me learn about the virtue of patience... but it seems I just want my projects to go along as quickly as possible.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Please keep your paws/fingers crossed...

for my Cosmo.




I rushed him to the emergency vet on Monday night and he's been admitted for at least a week. I thought they'd diagnose some cold or something, but he's got DKA (some horrible form of diabetes that's gone untreated). After the first night, they also found that he has a fatty liver (I don't remember the medical name), pancreatitis, and today, a heart murmur. My baby can't catch a break. However, there are some signs of improvement. Now, he's only the D and the K, and he's using the litter box on his own. He's still extremely lethargic though. I'm asking for thoughts, prayers, or whatever positive 'energy' you can send out... they're doing a procedure tomorrow that pretty much determines if he'll actually fully recover.

Needless to say, I've been a hot mess all week. All the guilt and blame game that I can fit in between bouts of crying. Attempting to change my hectic schedule around his visitation hours. Trying really hard not to cry every time I think of him not making it. But his small improvements have me hopeful... b/c I just can't imagine not having my buddy around.


"Me and my mommy. Best buds."

32 Comments:

Blogger Jeni said...

My paws, fingers, toes and whatever else I have will be crossed. Thinking of you, if you need anything let me know.

3/12/08, 10:00 PM  
Anonymous Jess said...

Aww, poor Cosmo. I hope he makes a full recovery and stays with you for a long time to come.

I fully understand the guilty feelings - been there, unfortunately. Don't beat yourself up too badly - cats are masters at covering up illness and even the most observant pet owner can miss signs of sickness.

3/12/08, 10:41 PM  
Blogger Stacey said...

You know that I'll be praying for both of you. I'm so sorry Cynth. Call me if you need anything...even though I'm thousands of miles away...I just wanna give you and the kitties a hug!

3/12/08, 10:58 PM  
Blogger WandaWoman said...

Aww Cyn, I'm so sorry to hear that Cosmo is doing poorly. He and you will definitely be in my prayers. Let me know if you need anything. I know this is so hard for you.

3/12/08, 11:11 PM  
Blogger Liz said...

Oooh, Tabi and I are sending good thoughts for Cosmo. :(

3/13/08, 5:43 AM  
Blogger Chris said...

*hug* Chaos, Mayhem, and I all send healing good wishes to Cosmo!!

3/13/08, 5:58 AM  
Blogger maryse said...

oh poor cosmo. i hope he's back to normal soon!

3/13/08, 6:14 AM  
Anonymous Bookish Wendy said...

Poor baby.

love you guys.

3/13/08, 6:22 AM  
Blogger Brigitte said...

Oh, head scritches Cosmo! Get better very soon...

Atticus, Mae and Gandalf

3/13/08, 6:29 AM  
Blogger Jodi said...

Poor Cosmo! We're sending positive feline vibes in your direction. What a hard thing to go through.

3/13/08, 7:46 AM  
Blogger dale-harriet said...

Came here immediately from Chaos' site; I am taking some time every day for my special Kitty Prayers. Please know, whatever love and good-health vibes can be mustered from here will be. Cosmo has a cheering section from Evangeline (who looks just like him) and even Lilliane, a brown tabby who is a blackkitty by religious converstion. (Seriously - heavy prayers and OPTIMISM coming your way!)

3/13/08, 8:01 AM  
Blogger Heide said...

Loves and scritches to Cosmo and hugs to you too mom. We're crossing our paws and fingers here that he feels better soon.

3/13/08, 8:07 AM  
Anonymous Cordelia said...

Oh, Cyn, I'm so sorry. I hope Cosmo is better soon, and I hope you stop feeling guilty soon.

3/13/08, 8:29 AM  
Blogger Maeve said...

Sending you good wishes and thoughts for you and your little fuzzle...

3/13/08, 9:06 AM  
Blogger Traceyleezle said...

Sending warm thoughts and prayers your way for you and Cosmo.

3/13/08, 9:17 AM  
Blogger StarSpry said...

Oh no! I'm so sorry to hear that Cosmo isn't doing well :(

I'm glad he's showing some signs of improvement. I'll be sending good, healing thoughts your way!

3/13/08, 10:15 AM  
Blogger Kim said...

BB, Cracky, and I are sending good thoughts Cosmo's way. (((Hugs))) Cyn, hang in there.

3/13/08, 10:24 AM  
Anonymous Rebekah said...

Oh, I'm sooooo sorry. We have all fingers, tails, toes, and beaks crossed for you guys.

3/13/08, 10:25 AM  
Anonymous elisa said...

I'm keeping my fingers and toes crossed for Cosmo, Cyn. It's so hard to see our furbabies in pain, and your a good kitty mama to take such good care of him.

xo

3/13/08, 10:30 AM  
Blogger Oiyi said...

OMG, I am so sorry to hear about Cosmo. I am sending healing vibes his way. Hugs!

3/13/08, 10:37 AM  
Anonymous sprite said...

We and our kitties will keep you guys in our thoughts... Hugs all around!

3/13/08, 10:46 AM  
Blogger Jeanne said...

Poor Cosmo! I hope he's home and causing trouble very soon.

3/13/08, 12:19 PM  
Blogger Paper Tiger said...

Ohhhhh, best wishes for you and Cosmo. I hope they can work some magic and get him back on the right track.

3/13/08, 12:35 PM  
Blogger Jenn said...

Hang in there Cosmo! Spicy Kitty and I are rooting for you!

3/13/08, 12:45 PM  
Anonymous Sydney said...

Poor Cosmo! I hope he's back home and acting like his old self soon. Don't blame yourself. It's their nature to hide illness so they won't become the prey. Sending healing thoughts your way.

3/13/08, 12:50 PM  
Blogger Cathi said...

I'm so sorry, Cynthia. Please let me know if there is anything I can do. xo

3/13/08, 1:16 PM  
Anonymous Carrie K said...

Oh no, Cynthia! Paws, fingers, prayers all crossed and being said for Cosmo! Hopefully he'll rally, it sounds like he's on his way. My Sheba ended up on insulin twice a day for years.

Aw, that paw photo! so cute.

3/13/08, 2:34 PM  
Blogger michaele said...

It's clear that he loves you: in that pic, he's got "proprietary paw" - the paw reaching out to touch you to claim you as his!! I'm thinking of all three of you - I hope everything goes well. Let me know if there's anything I can do. Hugs & fur!

3/13/08, 7:43 PM  
Blogger Kathy said...

My two black kitties and I are sending positive vibes to your Cosmos (and you too)!

3/14/08, 9:01 AM  
Blogger knitseashore said...

I came over from Chris' site. ((hugs)) we have been through this too and it is so hard; you both will be in our thoughts and prayers. My kitties send deep purrs of healing to Cosmo.

3/14/08, 9:39 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Good luck to Cosmos and hugs to you. We'll keep tails, fingers, paws and claws all crossed. Look forward to reading a good report!

3/14/08, 3:28 PM  
Blogger mrspao said...

Poor Cosmo and poor you. You are both in my thoughts.

3/15/08, 9:55 AM  

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